Chapter 237.1

Chapter 237.1

“Mr. Kim Chunbok.”

D*mn it, this can’t be right. There’s no way my name is Kim Chunbok.

This world is messed up. Someone must be manipulating it. Someone is fabricating my reality and watching me.

“Kim Chunbok, you’re refusing your meals again. You keep throwing away your medicine too.”

“….”

Don’t joke with me. Do you think I don’t know what’s in it…?!

The wrinkled doctor in a white coat looked suspicious. I don’t eat anything given by someone who looks like you.

“If you continue to act so uncooperative…”

“Are you going to kill me?”

“Excuse me?”

The doctor, who had been writing something endlessly in a file folder, looked up.

“I hate that medicine. Give me something stronger.”

“….”

I didn’t take my eyes off the scratching pen. Is that even a pen? If you poke someone with that in the eye, throat, or ear, they’ll die.

Actually, it might be hard to kill them with one blow, but if you shove it two or three times and twist it…

Ah… these random thoughts are making my head burn red. I rubbed my prickly scalp, feeling the uncomfortable tension.

“Patient, you mentioned before that you think there’s a wiretap in your ear. Do you still hear those hallucinations?”

This doctor has a tendency to speak strangely. It’s not a hallucination, it’s the truth!

Yet, he skillfully changes the subject to make me look like the crazy one. He’s really good at it.

That doctor needs to be investigated too. I stared at his nameplate with my sharp eyes.

Hanmaeum Mental Hospital.

There might be a lens, so I should also check beyond the doctor’s glasses, the flower vase, or even the nameplate.

Despite repeatedly shouting that someone was watching me, no one believed what I said.

It’s not a mental illness. I can’t prove it, but someone is watching my every move.

Since Lee Wooshin put me in a hospital in Gangwon-do, I’ve been suspicious non-stop.

I’m trapped in a box. It’s a fake world that someone created. I chewed my nails and the doctor smoothly rolled his pen again.

“Let’s continue monitoring your progress. Your bones are still very twisted, and your infected wounds have been left untreated for too long. But you’re gradually improving, so just hang in there a little longer. If Kim Chunbok causes trouble, the nurse will have a hard time.”

“….”

I couldn’t help but laugh. The nurse assigned to me was a very well-built man, with a smile on his face that seemed suspicious.

No matter how much he’s assigned to severe patients, his muscles were as hard as rocks, and he was tall too.

I heard he’s a former Marine, which might not be wrong. Even when I had seizures, that nurse picked me up without even grunting.

What was his name… Right, Jin Hojae…

That guy’s face was perfect for the name Chunbok. A strange inferiority complex surfaced within me.

Moreover, that nurse was unexpectedly sensitive, taking away any sharp objects without leaving a trace. From now on, I was thinking of growing my nails out.

Even when I bit my tongue, the taste of blood passing down my throat was bitter, failing. When I slammed my forehead against the wall, my skull wobbled, failing. Even when I wanted to fall off the rooftop, my knees trembled and I collapsed.

What was I doing? Damn it, why am I so weak…? Anger and sorrow surged within me.

“Kim Chunbok, the weather is nice today. Please, don’t even try it.”

“….”

The sunlight shining through the window was too bright.

They don’t understand that it makes me want to die even more. Ordinary people wouldn’t know that feeling.

I left the hospital after midnight.

Even beasts choose their place to die, but I can’t even do that. I’m neither human nor animal.

I escaped out of the building on an escalator, one day when the world was covered in white due to a historic snowstorm warning.

A hospital in the rural part of Gangwon-do wasn’t a place that could even be described as having security. Only a soaking wet stray cat watched me and warned me with a “meow.”

“Ha… ha…”

I walked through the snow, with my feet sinking deeply into it. In the dark and desolate night, I threw off the damned hospital gown. I wandered naked through the minus-10-degree cold, searching for a place to die.

“Ha… ha…”

As the thick snowflakes poured down, visibility was almost zero, and I could feel the heat rising in the back of my head.

Still, as I walked out into the pure white world, it felt like the end was near.